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Tell him you want to marry him, then.

No, Crais.

Then you aren't being direct with him, are you?

I care about him, deeply, and that's a part of the reason I am not going to ask him. He was so concerned that he'd get me in trouble here. I want to give him breaks between contracts so he doesn't feel tied in place or that he owes me a certain type of behaviour.

Maybe that's a decision he should get to make, with all the information.

Including your feelings on the subject.

When we first chose to contract, we had that discussion.

If you want to find out if we continue that discussion, you'd best not die.

I've had it yanked out before, Julian. I might cry but it won't kill me.

I only like it when you cry after I've done something terrible to you.

Oh, are you admitting to enjoying that for more than scientific knowledge now?

Aren't I supposed to be honest about my feelings? Especially those that might contain a hint of sadism?

I am scared out of my mind and I am choosing Cyram for this for a several reasons that make that an easier dynamic for me, for this. They don't mean I like, trust, or love you less.

Neither does my incessent fixation on making you and the Doctor stop being stupid.

I know, Crais. I am worried. Scared, even.

If we do contract permanently, I expect mugs as a wedding gift.

We'll see what I come up with. Mugs seem likely, if I can find suitable ones.

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